*I received an ecopy of this book from the author via Lovers of Paranormal. This has not influenced my review.*
I hate to be so harsh in a review, but I have to be honest, and I think this is an important thing to talk about.
This book started off typical with the girl being saved by the hot vampire who just happened to be there, and then the girl thinking about how hot he was even though the world as she knew it was ending. Ok. That doesn’t automatically make for a bad story. The real issue I had was that Drew gave me the creeps and came off as stalker-y and sexual assualt-y with how he was so insistent that he’d protect her even though they just met, how he kept pinning her against the wall and saying things that were pushy and manipulative, how he was so controlling and possessive, etc. For example, she got a cut on her arm, he suddenly stepped into the bathroom with her while they were alone at his house and shut the door behind him, she backed away from him, and this happened:
“What do I have to do to prove to you I’m not going to hurt you, Emilia?”
I looked at him quizzically as he took my right hand gently, pressing his body into mine. This guy had serious issues with invading my personal space. I tried to jerk away from him, but I was trapped against the towel rail.
“Shh,” he said, fixing me with his big, dark eyes, “just let me see it.”
She even said herself that he invaded her space and that she tried to get away. Here’s another quote, and keep in mind this man is a stranger who Emilia is angry with:
He strapped on the backpack then, to my surprise, swept me up sideways with one arm under my knees and the other under my shoulders.
“Drew,” I said in outrage, “I’m perfectly capable of walking.”
“No, Emilia,” he replied in a long-suffering tone, “you’re not. You don’t have to act tough, so just shut up and let me help you.”
He picked her up without her permission, then told her to shut up when she tried to argue. Here’s another, when he picked her up again without her permission:
“I don’t need your help!” I shouted at him in irritation.
“Well, you’re getting it anyway,” he growled at me, his eyes flashing.
Picked her up again without permission, and then snapped at her in a way that seemed threatening. At one point, she even woke up to find he was cuddling her in bed. He said it was because she was screaming in her sleep in fear and it was the only thing that calmed her. I can deal with that. But then he should’ve moved the second she woke and pushed him away, not kissed her neck, rubbed his leg between hers, and held her in place while she was struggling to get away from him. And it gets even worse because then he kept telling her he knew she felt it too (which she apparently did, but that’s not his call to make, and it doesn’t matter what she feels if she tells you to stop). Later in the book, he even threatened to put himself in danger unless she talked to him. He also acted like she owed him her feelings just because he had feelings for her. He literally could not fathom why she would turn him down or want someone other than him and acted like she was betraying him by not wanting him. He was the epitome of one of those guys who complains about being “friendzoned.”
These things are not sexy. They’re scary and controlling and manipulative. These are the kinds of things we’ve been conditioned to think are sexy by society and many, many other books, so I’m not trying to pick on this author personally, but I feel more and more compelled to point these kinds of problems out the more I see them.
I’m not sure if these behaviors were meant to be sexy, but if they weren’t, then that message wasn’t clear enough. The MC herself recognized that his behavior was creepy and presumptive, that he wasn’t someone she should care about or be attracted to, yet she still kept thinking of how attracted to him she was. And half the time, when Drew essentially sexually assaulted her in some way, she would fight, then give in and think about how sexy it was, then go back to pushing him away. And as the book went on, it became clear the only problem she really had with him wasn’t his creepy behavior but rather one specific thing he did earlier in the book.
I kept reading on the off chance that maybe Drew was meant to come off in a negative way, and that maybe Emmy would come to her senses, and that maybe the book would go in an unpredictable direction and not make him the love interest. Solomon was also a potential candidate, and though he wasn’t ideal either, he was far better than Drew. Solomon seemed to have good intentions with Emmy, was honest, respected her wishes/consent, and didn’t manhandle her. And if you want to know what actually happened in the end… *SPOILER* She didn’t choose yet. There turned out to be a kind of fated mate thing going on though, which explained why Drew so immediately insisted on protecting her. He also seemed to suddenly turn into a good guy at the end, claiming he was grateful just to have Emmy in his life even if she didn’t feel the same way. But it appears the love triangle will continue into the next book. *END SPOILER*
But regardless of her decision in that matter, the whole “I’m attracted to two vampires even though I know I shouldn’t be” thing went on for too long and was pretty much the only thing the book was about, so I got frustrated and lost interest. If there had been more to the plot, I might’ve still been able to enjoy this.
Another problem though was that I didn’t like Emmy. Some of her decisions didn’t make any sense, she was painfully oblivious to things that were obvious, her inability to stop romanticizing Drew was aggravating, and she came off as kind of selfish when she wasn’t appreciative of all the benefits she was getting (or could’ve been getting) by being close to Solomon (like his protection and not having to donate blood).
I had a few other issues, like too much description and cliche villain stuff, but those were smaller things I probably could’ve overlooked if not for the rest.
I wanted to read this book because I’m a fan of vampires. I’m also a fan of love triangles. And the writing and premise for this book were not bad. But I couldn’t get past the protag’s strange decisions or the romanticizing of controlling, possessive behavior.
I'm not sure I feel comfortable recommending this, but it would best for anyone who likes vampires, new adult (technically it's not NA, but it has that feel), and love triangles.
Blah. Drew sounds like a real winner. <– sarcasm. This book would probably piss me off.
Yeah, I was not a fan of Drew’s behavior!
Wow he sure sounds charming! YEEESH controlling and manipulative? NOPE NOPITY NOPE NOPE. It should never be a “choosing the lesser evil” way either! This is scary and not romantic at ALL! And I would probably punch someone in the face if they told be to shut up or try to carry me.
(pstt I also nominated you for the Versatile Blogger Award because your blog is amazing :3)
Lol aren’t you swooning? 😉 I’m glad I’m not the only one who feels this way. I would be scared and uncomfortable around someone acting like that.
Oh, thank you! I don’t really do awards, but I will check it and see 🙂
Wow isn’t he quite the charming guy? (note the sarcasm :/ ) No honestly, I don’t DNF books but had I started reading this one, I’d definitely have DNF-ed it! I’m so sick of books romanticizing assault and abuse over and over again…This is not what we should be teaching the younger generation. Sheesh!
Oh yes, I’m swooning 😉 Like I said, I kept reading because I wanted to see if he would actually become the love interest or not. But I too do not like when abuse is romanticized and agree that it runs the risk of teaching the younger generations (hell, even older generations) that that kind of thing is ok.
Yikes, I can definitely see why you had issues with Drew – those quotes show he is quite creepy and overcontrolling!
I’m glad it’s not just me who feels that way!
Kristen, I am so glad that you are bringing in proof and quotes to show how toxic the relationship is in this book. I seriously applaud you for pointing to the flaws in exploring relationships within fiction, because, dang, there is some seriously problematic stuff out there. For some reason, this book sounds like Twilight. Just as dismissive of a woman’s agency and choice of her own body. Ugh. UGH!! (PS: I hope you are safe from Irma’s fury. Keep us updated when you can, okay? Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers).
There is a lot of problematic stuff out there, this isn’t even the worst I’ve seen, and I realize now that it’s important to make sure people realize it’s problematic, even if they still decide to read and/or enjoy the book. I honestly don’t remember Twilight at all because I read it so long ago. And thank you for your concern about the hurricane <3 *hug*
I saw the word zombie and got excited for a minute then realised it was love triangle city and I deflated. Yeah I don’t like that kind of controlling boyfriend thing either. Nice review!
Yeah, no, not a book for you lol. Not even a book for me. I like love triangles, but not controlling love interests!
This sounds like a complete and utter train wreck. I’ve read some problematic romance/genre romance spinoffs in my time (quite recently, haha) and I think the “I did X/Y/Z for your own good” mentality is the thing I find the most disturbing. If you buy into that sort of whack thinking, then anything is excusable…which isn’t true or even remotely okay. Good on you for telling it like it is, Kristen!
Yeah, this was not a healthy romance portrayal at all. And I agree, what you said about that “your own good mentality” is, like, typical emotional abusive behavior. Thanks!
I do like this title. Bummer this had so many problems. I never for the life of me understand the appeal of possessive characters, isn’t that the stuff we hate in real life? Maybe it’s just me but why would reading about it be fun? Anyway yeah Drew sounds like a creepster. Not a fan of love triangles either, but the behavior you talk about is definitely a no-go.
I don’t understand the appeal either. Idk, maybe it’s *because* people hate it in real life, so they get a chance to explore it more or enjoy it in books? I don’t like it though.
Yeah that does sound creepy. Maybe all vampires are like that. In the Anita Blake books, Jean-Claude (the main vampire) is sometimes pushy with Anita. Anita though is a badass and not a weak woman. She would kill Jean-Claude if need be.
Vampires do often seem to be portrayed as rather possessive!